CardRunners

Okay, so, I kept playing HU sngs but running like shit.  I went to my friend Sam's today, and asked him if I could 4-6 table NL$200 on his account, and I'd cover my losses.  I ended up winning $450 after about an hour and a half, which was a nice confidence booster.  When I get back to my home laptop to grind NL$50 for a bit with my $720, I end up losing 2.5 BI, then end up losing the next session I play when I was just shortstacking juicy NL$100 tables.  For example, I remember losing KK to K9o aipf, AJ to 33 because 33 called a reraise preflop and flopped a set, my AT on a flop of JTT turn 8 vs Q9, and just dumb hands like that CONSTANTLY happening.  It's just a neverending streak of annoyance where I can't have 2 winnings days in my fucking life.  W/e, things will change soon.  I may keep doing this with my friend, as well as going to live games, and taking a slight break from online MSNL.   

Verneer, I lik eyour question about the skills set of a NL$100 reg vs a NL$400 reg...I'll actually explain the skill set diff between a NL$100 reg and a NL$200 reg, and a NL$200 reg vs a NL$400 reg:

NL$100 and NL$200 skill set difference:  They're not a ton different, but I remember this was a big and difficult jump for me back in the day.  The main thng is that NL$200 players will often not c/r bluff obvious flops (like 882r, J42r, etc flops) unless they have it.  They're more likely to c/r very drawy flops where they can rep a multitude of hands on later streets as a bluff.  They're also capable of merging their range and shoving over valuebets if the board is scary.  They are pretty much more aware of what they're representing.  They're more capable of making 4bet bluffs, resqueezing preflop, floating in better spots, and playing more pot control.  They're also better hand readers, and can fold overpairs, as well as go wth shoves that are thinner than what one is capable of making at NL$100.  Ppl are more fearless and more aggressive than at NL$200, and start getting fancy (maybe a little too fancy for their own good), but overall play decently straight-forward.   

The main difference between NL$200 and NL$400 is the aggression.  People at NL$400 are often fearless, and it's all about putting in the last bet (at least preflop).  There is constant 3betting and 4betting.  I've noticed that at NL$200, people often 3bet preflop without a plan, while at NL$400, if you get 3bet preflop and you shove, the person often either quickly folds or quickly calls, because it was planned out in their head.  Their preflop 4betting ranges are also polizared...or at least should be.  At NL$400, people are also very capable of telling when they're tilted/playing bad (my obv weakness),  and also pay attention to when others are not playing their best.  They play a lot based on flow and dynamic- if someone is getting frustrated, people will go out of their way to play pots with that person, because that person will eventually spew off their chips out of frustration.  A lot of NL$400 regs will also game select, which often many NL$200 regs don't do.  I'd probably say that most NL$200 regs do not analyze their hands in PT and surround themselves with a strong group of poker players as friends; instead, they let their ego take over and assume they can single-handedly destroy bigger games because they're winning at the moment.  However, NL$400 regs often do things like post on 2+2, constantly watch vids, and often talk to others that also play at midstakes about questionable hands that they played.  A lot of NL$400 players are also capable of making CIB-type plays (click it back...making a tiny raise or reraise) as both a bluff or with the nuts.  They do it with hands occasionally like AQ on a random Axx flop in order to induce.  This happens occasionally at NL$200, but NL$400 players often are capable of putting you to the test with the minimal amount of chips needed (ever wonder why the most successful 4bets are something like $105 to a $48 3bet)?  They often give off the illusion that they are playing looser or crazier than they really are- NL$400 regs are often good at disguising their ranges and playing style until you have many hands on them.   

Let me know what you all think, but I personally think that those are the skill sets of the different limits. 

MarkWalhberg, btw, I'm too lazy to check my HEM, but I'm pretty sure we've only had a few hands together, and I don't believe we've played any big pots.  Sn is a secret hehe. 

Okay, so hopefully during this break I can do some more NL$200 6max hands at my friends; that way, I can really pick out when I'm feeling best so I can play as optimally as I can...plus when a person is behind me it is quite helpful.  I'm planning on going to a live game next weekend too, or possibly even Wednesday.  If one is playing live, it's not only easier, but it's much easier to step away from the table, and having a finite amount of actual paper money instead of virtual money makes it much easier to have managable losses.  I'm ready to get into teh pokerrrz!  Tonight I plan on getting disgustingly drunk for my friend's bday though... :)

I've ran badly the past 3 days at NL$25 to dumb fish, having a few -2BI sessions, so I decided to take my $225 and grind the $10+1 HU sngs (mainly turbos).  These things are fucking CAKE.  I forgot that micro HU players make so many mistakes.  I managed to win like 8/9 of those today, so I now have $300.  I'm expecting like $80 in rakeback and $325 from FTP as the end of the year Ironman bonus, so I'm looking at $700.  I don't know if I really feel like playing NL$25 6max or if I'd rather grind $20-$30 SNGs until I get back to $1k for trying NL$50. 

The past few days I had strongly considered redepositing, but hopefully for the next few weeks I can run well and put a decent roll together.  I really wanna get back into poker, since I feel like sitting on a bunch of money, though I have plenty, is like being on a fixed budget.  I didn't want to "retire" from the game, hehe.  While it's certainly frustrating to look back and see I had like a $10k roll online like a month or two ago, I shouldn't have been playing 2/4, especially HU, with that kind of online roll, and if I did, I shouldn't have at least went off for as much as I did.  

Don't know if I mentioned this, but I bought Holdem Manager from CR for $45.  I had PT2 for the longest time before I got a new comp and was too lazy to email the PT support, so I was really considering buying PT3, since I had really liked PT2.  I didn't do so much hand reviewing, but I did enjoy looking at my overall winrate over a numbe rof hands, my VPIP/PFR/AF, as well as my overall winnings and making a graph of it.  PT3 was meh...I thought it was clunky and not much of an improvement from PT2, but I think HEM wouldn't accept credit card, but rather just Paypal (which I didn't have) or like UB transfers or something, so I didn't consider getting it.  I'm very pleased CR dropped the price drastically and made it available to pay through credit card!  I don't think I'll look through HEM for $10 SNGs, but I will start looking over hands when I go back to NL cash games or $20+ SNGs.  One thing a lot of players do that I never really did was look through hands in my database.  Though I did post tons of hands in blog and accept comments and all, I realized that I did more defending of how I played than trying to scrutinize myself.  I should always be trying to look for errors when I play. 

Anyways, New Years is comin up!  Only New Years resolutions are get back to the gym (I'll do that) and grind up through limits until I'm grinding NL$200 or so again while being fully aware of my quality of play and being able to quit (I'll work on this...but it'll be hard hehe).  If I do feel motivated enough to constantly analyze my game (if I have enough free time for school and social shit otherwise), then I may attempt to get a coach if I desire to move to 2/4+, constantly look over/discuss HH with others, etc, to try to hopefully get to 5/10 or something next year.  As far as skill, I know I'm about at 2/4, and since 2/4-5/10 have a very similar player pool, I'd say having the pure skill as a 5/10 regular isn't too far-fetched.  I used to be a 2/4 reg for a while, so I know how aggro the games are. However, I'm unfortunately a far ways away from having the grinding mentality or stability as a 5/10 regular :-(  The main focuses are knowing when to quit, game selection, and swallowing my pride by being ready to move down if I'm downswinging.  I'm ready to turn things around in '09.  It's gonna take a lot of work, since many ppl at 2/4+ regularly work on their game and put in a lot of hands to stay at that level, so I should expect I need to do the same. 

So I had a good winning day, winning 7 BI in ~2 hrs @ 65bb/100. 

Just an amusing hand here...put him exactly on JQ based on how he played (pretty bluffy in a lot of spots and overplayed hands). 

Seat 1: Villain 1 ($24.25 in chips)

Seat 2: Villain 2 ($32.35 in chips)

Seat 3: Hero ($54.75 in chips) -

Seat 4: Villain 3 ($14.25 in chips) -

Seat 5: Villain 4 ($48.70 in chips) -

Seat 6: Villain 5 ($38.35 in chips)

PRE-FLOP:

Villain 3 posts small blind $0.10

Villain 4 posts big blind $0.25

Dealt To: Hero

FOLD Villain 5

FOLD Villain 1

FOLD Villain 2

RAISE Hero ($0.75)

FOLD Villain 3

CALL Villain 4 ($0.50)

FLOP:

Pot: $1.6

BET Villain 4 ($1.60)

RAISE Hero ($4.75)

CALL Villain 4 ($3.15)

TURN:

Pot: $11.1

BET Villain 4 ($11.10)

RAISE Hero ($49.25) - All in

CALL Villain 4 ($32.10) - All in

UNCALLED Hero ($6.05)

RIVER:

Pot: $97.5

SHOWDOWN:

Hero:

Villain 4:

Hero collected $94.5 from main pot with two pair, Aces and Jacks

SUMMARY:

Total pot: $97

Rake: $3

Final Board:

Seat 1: Villain 1 didnt bet folded - Net Gain/Loss: ($ 0.00)

Seat 2: Villain 2 didnt bet folded - Net Gain/Loss: ($ 0.00)

Seat 3: Hero button showed [Jh Ad] and won 94.50 with two pair, Aces and Jacks - Net Gain/Loss: ($ 45.80)

Seat 4: Villain 3 small blind folded before the Flop - Net Gain/Loss: ($ -0.10)

Seat 5: Villain 4 big blind showed [Qd Js] and lost with a pair of Jacks - Net Gain/Loss: ($ -48.70)

Seat 6: Villain 5 didnt bet folded - Net Gain/Loss: ($ 0.00)

Decent flop lol

Seat 1: Hero ($39 in chips) -

Seat 2: Villain 1 ($32 in chips)

Seat 3: Villain 2 ($21 in chips)

Seat 4: Villain 3 ($30.30 in chips)

Seat 5: Villain 4 ($41.20 in chips) -

Seat 6: Villain 5 ($25.45 in chips) -

PRE-FLOP:

Villain 5 posts small blind $0.10

Hero posts BIG blind $0.25

Dealt To: Hero

FOLD Villain 1

FOLD Villain 2

FOLD Villain 3

RAISE Villain 4 ($0.85)

FOLD Villain 5

RAISE Hero ($3.25)

CALL Villain 4 ($2.40)

FLOP:

Pot: $6.6

BET Hero ($4.25)

RAISE Villain 4 ($19.35)

RAISE Hero ($35.75) - All in

CALL Villain 4 ($16.40)

TURN:

Pot: $78.1

RIVER:

Pot: $78.1

SHOWDOWN:

Hero:

Villain 4:

Hero collected $75.1 from main pot with a Royal Flush

SUMMARY:

Total pot: $78

Rake: $3

Final Board:

Seat 1: Hero big blind showed [Kh Ah] and won 75.10 with a Royal Flush - Net Gain/Loss: ($ 36.10)

Seat 2: Villain 1 didnt bet folded - Net Gain/Loss: ($ 0.00)

Seat 3: Villain 2 didnt bet folded - Net Gain/Loss: ($ 0.00)

Seat 4: Villain 3 didnt bet folded - Net Gain/Loss: ($ 0.00)

Seat 5: Villain 4 button showed [8c 9c] and lost with a straight, Queen high - Net Gain/Loss: ($ -39.00)

No other interesting hands; pretty standard day today.  I only lost one big pot where I was 37/63 underdog where I was forced to bet/call in a reraised pot with AQ to 33 on 245r flop, getting like 4:1 after he shoved.  

Very pleased with today, and I'll definitely do my best to keep up the grind, and also hopefully grind out bonuses.  I've learned that if you're really focused on grinding, playing much below your normal limit isn't so bad, since you forget how much money you're playing for.  Probably a good mentality for me to adopt when I get back to 2/4+. 

I've also been watching more CR, DC, and LP vids, and trying to pay more attention to them. 

Saw Slumdog Millionaire today with the family- it was pretty sweet.  About a poor Indian kid that gets on the Indian version of Who Wants to be a Millionaire, gets to the final question, and is accused of cheating and sent to the police for interrogation. 

Life's pretty good, and I'll have to keep up the grind and keep having fun.  It'll prob be a 2-3 month long grind to get back to NL$200 6max+ playing in my roll and making sure my personal management issues are minimized.  I really have no excuse for not being at 2/4+ other than losing too much on certain days that fucks me over later.  ONE day I'll fix that...hopefully it's soon!  I'm ready to do my time to elevate my poker game again. 

Wow these pics are 6 months old but I forgot to post them hehe...I unfortunately may never get ahold of like the other 100 pics of beach week I have because my friends will be too lazy to find them. 

The living room of our house





It was sweet being drunk for breakfast lol.  Scott on the right, Taylor in middle, Sean on left.  I think it's safe to say everyone looks gay when they're drunk hah

Me and 3 others killed the 151 after the first night... to my discomfort that night and the next morning.



Me and scott on the left, and Kallan on the right- all smacked from some solid headys. 






After a fun night of beerpong



Our beerpong setup








Kallan on the left, Lauren in the middle, Scott belligerent on the right.  Lauren was one of the four girls that stayed in our house.  A lot of the girlfriends were not allowed to come to beach week...we would go to the beach to "recruit" others who wanted to party with us lol.  Good times



On a side note, have been losing a few more BI every fucking session I play.  It's so sick how like I barely EVER play an all-in pot, but I just keep getting chopped away at with random coolers for like 30bb at a time.  ARRRGH I hate teh no limit pokerz.  I'm looking forward to my end of the year money from FTP and the miniscule amount of rakeback from this month to help me out!

BTW, here's a pic of my roomate that looks like CTS:



But he doesn't play poker, so he's not an evil CTS clone. 

I just came upon the pics and felt I had to post them...bring back good memories.  I'm looking forward to the next trip- possibly Mexico during spring break?  This winter break I've just been chilling with friends during day, playing video games (especially guitar hero), a little poker here and there, then partying with them at night.  The mornings are definitely the worst part of the break...

I hope to have some sweet New Years pics to put up as well!  I sure as fuck am not bringing my camera, since it will prob end up lost/broken/stolen, though.  I'm either going to a friend of a friend's party nearby or down to JMU (James Madison University) to a different friend of a friend's party; most likely to the nearby one. 

Well...sorta.  I got my $436 in rb back, lost $100 last night in an MTT, and decided to attempt to 4table grind NL$25 with this measly $300 or so because I don't feel like depositing.  I may get another $3k from my friend if I REALLLLY feel like it, but i think I wanna push myself to grind this shit.  I played today and managed to win $10, putting the bankroll at a whopping $346 woot woooot!! Haha this amuses me.  I remember I grinded $300 in rb up to $20k in like a month and a half in October- such a nasttty heater.  I wish I still ran like that. 

I was inspired because I just received my brand new Samsung 24 inch 1080p HD monitor from FTP!  It's the SyncMaster 2443 BWX...its really sweet.  I'm shocked at what a difference the size of monitor makes to my eyes (both the comfort and the visual "wow" factor). 

On a side note, will fortunately get to go back to the gym for the next month while at home, and got EXACTLY a 2.0 when all the grades came in, meaning I'm not going to be initiated for the fraternity yet, but I'm not totally fucked yet either.  I expect to get a 2.8-3.2 next semester, tbh.  My classes are:

Math 108 (business calc)
Spanish 106 (I used to be REALLLY good at spanish)
Comm 101
Some computer visual art class, since we're required to take an art class, and fuck drawing/painting etc

Three days ago, some fraternity brothers called me at 1030 a.m. and asked me if I wanted to roadtrip to NY with them.  I obliged, ended up going, and sorta BS'ed the story to my parents when they called so that they never knew I was in NY hehe.  We did fairly tourist-like things, saw Times Square, ate at good places, and did some drinking.  We only had two nights to see such a big city, so we couldn't do a ton, but it was still fun. 

And Happy Chanukah bitcchhesss.  I actually told my parents no clothes, giftcards, or money, so this should be amusing to see what they get me. 

So I'm going to try to grind this $346 up to a beast roll.  I looked at my bonus status, and apparently I get $350 free as my end-of-year bonus.  I'mma try to take this $700 and turn it into like $3.5k in a month.  I actually feel motivated to grind with this monitor...srsly.  I don't know wtf it is- it's possibly the change of scenery because I'm not used to playing on a big screen?  I know whenever I switch poker sites, I actually am motivated to do well grinding because I feel rejuvenated looking at something new.  I've grinded up small rolls before when I put my mind to it...so here it goes! 

On a side note, have unfortunately been spending money like crazy, so now would be a beast time to grind a good roll and start earning money at poker again.  Fortunately, I have a very good amount of money in the bank, and essentially have no mandatory living expenses, so my plan was to essentially live off this money for the next 3.5 years, then pay for/furning an apartment for like 6 months or so after I get out of school and get a job.  I realized that I do miss poker and the competition, as well as I feel like a bum sitting on a bunch of money but not actually "working" while a lot of my friends grind out like $7/hr lol.  I've ran badly, but I've also been irresponsible, and I realize that if I get even more financially-stable now, it will pay off ridiculously down the line. 

BTW, blog counters being reset is BS!!!

Here's a gay hand from today that took away a lot of my profits :-(

His flop semi-donk bet (wasn't first to act but he bet OOP into the PFR) seemed a little week on this kind of flop texture, so I c/r.  He thought a bit and called.  His range is certainly a 6, but I was thinking something like JT-JK or some type of mid pp.  Turn gave me a sweeeeet draw, so I decided to barrel again, since we had good stacks to bet and not have to comitt myself, and he couldn't just randomly shove a J...he would need 6x+.  After he thought and coldcalled the turn, it was obv he had a 6.  I ginned the river (so I thought) and shoved...but he rivered a full house- fuuuck!  Ah well, next time...that was like the only bluff I ran the whole session lol.  I'm still not running well, but I can see myself doing well if I stick my mind to things.  NL$25 isn't cake anymore, but it isn't exactly impossible either.  I miss the old days on Stars/Party though, where NL$25 was like play moniez, and even 1/2 was like ridiculously-filled with donks.  2/4 was also EASILY beatable, while now it's pretty hard, since it shares the same player pool often with players that play up to 5/10 or even 10/20. 

Seat 1: Villain 1 ($39.80 in chips) -

Seat 2: Hero ($45.15 in chips) -

Seat 3: Villain 2 ($43.50 in chips) -

Seat 4: Villain 3 ($13.50 in chips)

Seat 5: Villain 4 ($25 in chips)

Seat 6: Villain 5 ($76.35 in chips)

PRE-FLOP:

Hero posts small blind $0.10

Villain 2 posts big blind $0.25

Dealt To: Hero

FOLD Villain 3

FOLD Villain 4

RAISE Villain 5 ($0.85)

FOLD Villain 1

CALL Hero ($0.75) (Pot Odds: 1.60)

CALL Villain 2 ($0.60)

FLOP:

Pot: $2.55

CHECK Hero

BET Villain 2 ($1.70)

FOLD Villain 5

RAISE Hero ($5.30)

CALL Villain 2 ($3.60)

TURN:

Pot: $13.15

BET Hero ($7)

CALL Villain 2 ($7)

RIVER:

Pot: $27.15

BET Hero ($32) - All in

CALL Villain 2 ($30.35) - All in

UNCALLED Hero ($1.65)

SHOWDOWN:

Hero:

Villain 2:

Villain 2 collected $84.85 from main pot with a full house, Sixes full of Eights

SUMMARY:

Total pot: $87

Rake: $3

Final Board:

Seat 1: Villain 1 button didnt bet folded - Net Gain/Loss: ($ 0.00)

Seat 2: Hero small blind showed [4s 7s] and lost with a straight, Eight high - Net Gain/Loss: ($ -43.50)

Seat 3: Villain 2 big blind showed [8c 6c] and won 84.85 with a full house, Sixes full of Eights - Net Gain/Loss: ($ 41.35)

 

...sike!  I won't get fucking initiated to PKS because my grades fucking suck, so I still have to pay dues but basically can't do shit involving voting on things and all until I get my grades up.  In addition to that, look at this awesome hh!

Full Tilt Poker Game #9530541972: $40,000 Guarantee (72602295), Table 16 - 15/30 - No Limit Hold'em - 19:20:38 ET - 2008/12/16
Seat 1: tabare (3,795)
Seat 2: TLC1733 (3,710)
Seat 3: brucecmc (3,160)
Seat 4: WilkieWilk (2,785)
Seat 5: natjor (2,470)
Seat 6: HERO (2,875)
Seat 7: Sharkshooter (2,245)
Seat 8: artbrancusi (2,900)
Seat 9: FastEddieG3 (3,060)
artbrancusi posts the small blind of 15
FastEddieG3 posts the big blind of 30
The button is in seat #7
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to HERO [5h 8h]
tabare folds
TLC1733 raises to 90
brucecmc folds
WilkieWilk folds
natjor folds
HERO calls 90
Sharkshooter calls 90
artbrancusi folds
FastEddieG3 folds
*** FLOP *** [4h 8s Jd]
TLC1733 bets 315
HERO calls 315
Sharkshooter folds
*** TURN *** [4h 8s Jd] [5c]
TLC1733 has 15 seconds left to act
TLC1733 checks
HERO has 15 seconds left to act
HERO bets 470
TLC1733 has 15 seconds left to act
TLC1733 raises to 3,305, and is all in
HERO calls 2,000, and is all in
TLC1733 shows [Jc Ah]
HERO shows [5h 8h]
Uncalled bet of 835 returned to TLC1733
*** RIVER *** [4h 8s Jd 5c] [Ad]
TLC1733 shows two pair, Aces and Jacks
HERO shows two pair, Eights and Fives
TLC1733 wins the pot (5,885) with two pair, Aces and Jacks
HERO stands up
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 5,885 | Rake 0
Board: [4h 8s Jd 5c Ad]
Seat 1: tabare didn't bet (folded)
Seat 2: TLC1733 showed [Jc Ah] and won (5,885) with two pair, Aces and Jacks
Seat 3: brucecmc didn't bet (folded)
Seat 4: WilkieWilk didn't bet (folded)
Seat 5: natjor didn't bet (folded)
Seat 6: HERO showed [5h 8h] and lost with two pair, Eights and Fives
Seat 7: Sharkshooter (button) folded on the Flop
Seat 8: artbrancusi (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 9: FastEddieG3 (big blind) folded before the Flop

*If the converters worked for this hh I wouldn't use fucking text.  Another wonderful thing going right...


I'm home at least and on winter break, so I hope to get mindlessly-drunk for srsly the next 5 weeks straight to  unwind from this shit semester.  Fuck Geology 101 and Econ 103 btw. 


At least for the rest of college I expect good grades because I'll never have to pledge again, as well as first semester pretty much always sucking regardless. 

So, on December 6th, I officially finished pledging, and I'm now a member of Phi Kappa Sigma!  It was a long two and a half months, but it was worth it.  I'm close with a lot of the members of the fraternity (especially my pledge brothers), and I'm optimistic about our future at Mason.  There are lots of stressful things to work out with slight turmoil, unfortunately, but I think they happened for the best. 

As far as grades go...not sure if I'll be initiated (I'm RIGHT on the fucking cusp...2.25 is needed)- it all depends on the finals I took this week!.  My grades are abysmal because pledging took up a shitload of time, as well as Geology 101 and Econ 103 (Micro) being hard as fuck (I thought Geology would be easy).  Philosophy, English, and IT i expect to have a B in, but the abysmal grades in the other classes probably will screw me.

Once I get my end-of-the-year bonus from FTP, as well as my rakeback from LeggoPoker, I will start up again.  I've just been running kinda crappy and having no fun at NL$50 6max, causing me to be on a very slow, steady, and annoying downswing.  I have a lot of money that I CAN redeposit, but I just don't feel like it at this point.  I'd like to think of some sort of business idea, and use the money I've made from poker to start it up.  I've played the very occasional MTT with just boring zero luck.  I can't run well in one of these damn things!   

Winter break pretty much starts now (though I have an IT final on Tuesday), so I'm pretty psyched.  Will this break be bad for my health (especially liver)?  Very....

BTW, if anyone here is in a fraternity, do any of you have good rush ideas?  We're finalizing the rush schedule, and I'm looking for any last bit of input I can get. 

Last night I tried to find a way online to create an HTML page (in Dreamweaver) that allows me to create quizzes for myself so I don't need one of my friends doing it- does anyone have any ideas on how to make a website or a program that allows me to quiz myself? 

4:30 pm edit: Well, I was tired of waiting and running badly, so I just said fuck it with my last $300 or so playing HU plo vs a weak player.  This hand obv happens...(sry for text HH converters won't work!)

Dealer: Hand #9458359876
Dealer: HERO posts the small blind of $2
Dealer: JJ0115 posts the big blind of $4
Dealer: You have been dealt [Tc 4h 7d 3s]
Dealer: HERO folds
Dealer: Uncalled bet of $2 returned to JJ0115
Dealer: JJ0115 mucks
Dealer: JJ0115 wins the pot ($4)
Dealer: Hand #9458361735
Dealer: JJ0115 posts the small blind of $2
Dealer: HERO posts the big blind of $4
Dealer: You have been dealt [4h Jh 9s Js]
Dealer: JJ0115 raises to $12
Dealer: HERO raises to $36
Dealer: JJ0115 calls $24
Dealer: The flop is [8c 2d Jc]
Dealer: HERO bets $48.90
Dealer: JJ0115 raises to $218.70
Dealer: HERO raises to $321.40, and is all in
Dealer: JJ0115 calls $102.70
Dealer: HERO shows [4h Jh 9s Js]
Dealer: JJ0115 shows [8s 8d 9d Qd]
Dealer: The turn is [Ad]
Dealer: The river is [Th]
Dealer: HERO shows three of a kind, Jacks
Dealer: JJ0115 shows a straight, Queen high
Dealer: JJ0115 wins the pot ($714.30) with a straight, Queen
high
Dealer: HERO is sitting out

I expect to get $400 in rakeback and $350 or so from FTP; I'll just play some random MTTs with that money (fuck grinding NL$25).  I may redeposit $3k, but I'm leaning towards not caring anymore about that.  I'm tired of poker and I'm tired of running badly.  I have run into hands for the past month and even the biggest maniacs ALWAYS have the hand.  Semibluffs don't work, their hands hit, etc.  I haven't tilted in a while, but clearly it doesn't matter.  It reminds me of Eurolinx in April of this year.  I don't expect to redeposit for a while; HOPEFULLY ONE TIME I CAN MAKE A RUN IN AN MTT and grind out.  I made one monster fucking mistake in the past 2 months, and that was my shit -$6.5k at 2/4 running badly.  Totally my fault, even when running badly, cuz with shots I should quit sooner.  But ever since then, I've been on a constant downswing I can't fucking shake!  FUUUUCK.  Do I have enough money to deposit?  DEFINITELY.  Have I lost the will to feel like playing poker for a long while?  Yes...it hasn't been fun in a long while.  The point is to make money, but if every time I play I feel disheartened and frustrated, there's no point in playing.  Fraternity things are also very stressful as well, and I think I may potentially take out my frustration on poker (or vice versa), so might as well leave poker out of the picture, except for some MTTs, for a while. 

Things have been a little too normal for me to blog about.  I haven't been playing poker for the past week and a half, since I've been trying to cool my head after my 2/4 downswing.  I've also been very frustrated due to the fact that I've been way overaggro, and slowly leaning away from my A-game the past 2 weeks.  I'm frustrated at myself, but I'm the only one to blame. 

I hope to start back up with poker when I get my $500 in rakeback by mid-late December, and I'm getting $2k from a friend on Tuesday (I think).  I had to cash out my $3.5k roll because i didn't wanna tilt it off after a bad 5 days or so at 2/4.  I thought I had my personal management problems worked out, but I guess I don't.  I'll go back to 4 tables of 6max NL only, and that should do the trick if I'm playing lower limits and all.  I will miss the stimulation of higher limits though....but hopefully in due time things will come.  If I get to NL$200, I'll stay there.  When I move to NL$400, I will have my friend beside me to keep an eye out for me and spot leaks in my game- that should make ALL the difference. 

Everything else has been goin okay; pledging THANKFULLY ends a week from today (actually 6 days)!  I cannot wait until all this stress is relieved; I can have more time for studying for finals, as well as just free time to fucking relax (which I've barely had ANY of). 

Thanksgiving break has been fun.  Had a very normal Thanksgiving, though the break has been sweet itself.  Gotten to party with a large variety of my friends here at home for at least half the nights I've been here.  BP tourney tonight to go to as well...maybe I'll provide pics?  I'm not bringin my camera cuz I'm not a fag, but if any of the girls take pics, I'll put them up here haha. 

I've found a weird problem with myself: I don't want anything anymore!  I was looking through Black Friday ads, and I couldn't find shit I wanted for the holidays.  Even my dad made a comment to my mom earlier, saying something like "w/e he wants he can easily buy himself or already has."  This is true :-(  I fortunately purchased Guitar Hero: World Tour with 2 wired controllers from RedOctane.com for $60- WHAT A STEAL!  Also got a DVD upscaler, cuz I'm WAYY into getting 1080p quality (or as close to it as possible).  Fuck buying a blu-ray player and changing my DVD collection to blue-rays...for now.  But ya, this holiday sucks because I don't want shit.  I think I will just buy clothes and have my parents reimburse me? 

Anyway, been sort of ranting, but figured I had to make a blog post about my thoughts and what I've been up to.  Once I get online moniez, I'll obv post HH and things will be much more interesting. 

BTW, found a legit place that I'll give some money to- go to amazon.com/xo.  It's the one laptop per child organization.  Gives these durable laptops to kids in shitty countries.  Pretty sweet idea, considering giving food is great and all, but it doesn't solve shit.  Laptops will educate them on how to fix shit themselves.  They're $200 per laptop and have wi-fi capability.  Education is prob the #1 thing in fixing fucked-up countries imo.  I'm going to buy 3 laptops for kids fairly soon (prob around holiday time).  Took me forever to find a legit charity!