CardRunners

Hey guys,

I have decided to take 4 days off poker - had to cash out the Ongame-roll to make it certain. The 1,3k was turned into 4,3. Not in the wanted way, but somehow i guess - me and Ongame have a weird thing going.

After reading Verneers blog where he links to tableratings and biggest winners at midstakes for the year i got kinda sad tbh. I got a little mad at myself, i really wish i was there. Didnt expect to find myself on the list, as i have played 3 sites this year and 2 of em isnt at tableratings, but when i saw nanonoko as winner i got kinda sader. Yes, when he is on top, that illustrated hes good. I feel though, i could have done the same. A little closer look also showes why hes on top, dedication. He plays tons, beating the game for 4ptbb/100. I beat it same way, but play 30% of what he does.

I feel i have unfinished business, i really do. I wished 09 started tomorrow and i was home alone and could play 7 hours str8. I take some days off to refresh myself and get a little break before it all starts, but im beyond motivated to start now also.

December turned into 14,5k month for me (incl rb) wich is just beyond great. Still, i cannot put fists in the air and be superhappy somehow. Reason is i played like 24k hands sporadicly wich is half of what i shoulda put in as effort.

I have talked alot about how things are gonna change from january, now its soon all about doing it. I dream about beeing able to post a 125k year-wingraph 1 year from now. Sure cause the cash would be nice and i obv need money to live, but definately also because i wanna prove to myself and others i suppose, that i made it happen.

Take care, see you in 09,

Dan

Hey doods,

Christmas has been superrelaxing and nice, though im also looking forward to the normal rythm starting up again (gf to work, kid to kgarden).

I was gonna take some days of poker, but it seems its not happening. I have left the prima account alone, and will until i start up again with serious grinding from january, but.. i once again started up playing ongame with a small deposit there 2 days ago, turning 1,3k into 3,3 in 2 days. This includes some sick hands where im getting utterly shocked to see huge pots slide away from me. Like i 3bet AA flop is 338 i bet turn 10 i try to induce bluff and get money in against flopped quads for 300bb pot. Not much to do, but illustrates i dont run like god. Im only playing 3handed games wich is my fav play of all possible games. This is so decent with Ongame, that u can make ur own tables and chose max nr of players. I have mentioned many times i have some severe tiltissues on that network, and most likely this is just another "shot", where i typical end up tiltcashing out anywhere from 3-10k within next 2 weeks (or obv bust) and do another try in a few months. Last "shot" was in sept where i ran 1k into 12 in 2 weeks playing the 3handed 2/4game. Good times.

Im really looking forward to 2009 kicking off, and im ready to start implementing my "rules" and more dedication. Its really motivating with the dollar beeing worth a lot more NOK (my currency) and real estate prices dropping. Its sick motivating to have bought a 100k boat im putting on water medio march. For christmas i got only boatrelated gifts, wich was so great - really liked to see family/friends taking our new "hobby" into consideration.

Probably not a realistic goal, although sure not impossible - but im thinkin that maybe in 2 years time, if things go ggggreat, i can get the family a place in the mountains. Kid is growing up, we love snow - i am dreaming about having a place to go to on weekends wintertime. Prices though here in Norway are utterly insane, but decreasing atm. Maybe 2011 or so could be great timing to enter the market if economy hasnt kicked off again before that. Need 300k min though, so not happening too fast. 2 succesful years at the tables though, well see. For sure variance is gonna increase for me, cause it seems i need to make a fast, hopefully controlled, jump into 3/6 euro games, since they are dominant at Prima midstakes. This is obv like 800nl (usd). 2/4 usd runs a bit too slow, hopefully it picks up. Im not rolled for 800nl atm, hopefully after january i am.

In love with poker atm, its such a SICK decent game that can give so much good things in life.

Hope all is well with you,

Dan

Hey guys,

Past days ive been taking it easy pokerwise (and in life also as usual lol). Im at 10-11k incl rb for december wich is great. Prob just some sporadic sessions before new year, i am using more time to think about next year. Its gonna include lots of poker, im guessing i will play twize as many hands as i have in 08, cause i will be dedicated - motivation is huge and i look forward to one more fresh start, where i now know how great a year can end even after severe downswwings and terrible choices. My year total is ca 80k incl rb/bonuses.

Now, how do make 09 a great year for myself..
From first session in january i will treat poker like a normal job. I will reduce amount of distractions in not answering phones while playing. I dont now how many times my mom has called while im playing, and since i love my mom i answer and chat it up with her, then afterwards its typical for me to think like this: "hmm 680 hands and im up 700ish - not the worst of days, i wont bother to fire up tables again", tomorrow thogh..grindomania delux, yea right!  So from january..sit for like 3 hours and play, take a break, then play 2-3 hours more, given i feel ready for it (lazyness i have to overcome, its a job now)

Hours, this will be my mainfocus resultwise. I know i am a winning player, but up until now i put in waay to few hours even though i spnd like 10 hours in front of the screen everyday. This will change, i actually hope to reduce that amount to 7 or 8 pr day, including playing ca 5. On prima this far, over a small samplesize i have 185d hr incl rb (only 70k hands), but im sure 100d is sustainable. 1000 hours will maybe be enough to reach my 100k goal.

Positive thoughts..The only thing i know 100% certain will happen during next year, most likely several times, is getting the feeling of "poker feeling impossible" "omg how bad can one run really" "fukk this sick game". Its just gonna happen, i know myself by now. Realizing its gonna happen, i will do my very very best do get the hell away from the pc and cool myself down before i return. On prima i am yet to move up in stakes while tilting and if i just stay at my level things will be ok. On other sites im outta control it seems, hard to say why. Another thing is negative input from others in ex pokerbuddies. Lately i find it really mehish to hear others complain about swings in poker and i feel its not good for me hearing this. After playing 2M hands or so, i dunno how many, i have seen most sick setups. I realize that if i play poker 330 days in 09 i will be coolered on 330 days - its just happening and part of the game we play. This is also why i stopped posting hands, cause i tended to focus on the annoying losing-hands, and it didnt do me any good. Please friends, stop posting me "bad-beat-hands", unless you just want my opinion on how it was played. I dont want to see KK lose to QQ, it happens to me as well, and its meaningless. Sorry if i sound arrogant, but i have to mention it because its kinda pulling me down. Im heading up though..lol

Seriously this time..get in some kind of ok shape. No, not to get the sixpack going like when i was 17, that train has most likely left. Goal is to everyday, do some sort of light exercise. If i feel crappy, at least just put the trainers on and get outside for a quick walk, and at least get some fresh air. I am certain this will do me very good, and if motivation in general for exercise isnt the best, im at least gonna start doing it for poker, then maybe mindset change and i become a healthfreak (i dont see that happening though, but who knows).

I am definately happy about 08. My pokerresults has made it possible for me to buy the boat of my dreams, and cash isnt a problem for me at all, freedom is good. Honestly though, there are some thoughts back in my head saying "dan, u did ok, but u coulda done twize as good if u really tried". I will try in 09 to take it to another level, i believe i have shown myself the last few months that im on my way to something good.

Merry Christmas guys, hope all is well with you,

Dan

Whats up guys,

For those who care, im still alive and kicking..
Things are going great i guess; never satisfied as most people but obv i cannot complain at all.
This month im ending at ca 15k up wich i guess is the best month this year for me, and i feel ok
about my game. Playing 2/4 as i unfort got slaughtered at 3/6. Maybe soon time to try it out again.

Recently i finally bought the boat of my dreams (realistic dreams) and it drains me for 96k wich is far
too much really. The timing is sick good in many ways, as the boat is actually 160k before any deal is made, so i think
i got a great agreement. I drove the desperate salesperson crazy and he was semimad when i finally accepted, cause i really asked for him to strech beyond possible; fun stuff. My boat looks 100% similar as this, but its not the object itself as its having things installed and i have barely seen it. Click the biggest pic to get up the other ones

http://www.finn.no/finn/boat/object?finnkode=14396089&sid=xz10cba8WZv_127162&WT.svl=Bilde
I really really want the boat to be called Coco, and gf is beginning to accept it, well see.

I believe i have come a step further in poker, not the gameplay itself but every other quality needed, wich i feel is so forgotten generally. I see the bigger picture and i take the letdowns better than ever, hopefully it stays that way for good. Im tired of hearing bad beat stories and negative things about poker, and try to look beyond that. I def used to dig myself down in that stuff earlier on, but its such a stupid thing to do. 2009 gonna be awesome.

Hope all is well with you, take care!

Dan

Hey guys,

Seems this blog is slowly dying. Im not sure why, but its a combo of few things. First of all im not that facinated by CR anymore. When companies promise fantastic changes to come and the result is worse product my feel for that product fades out. 2nd, i made this blog to log my own results etc  and i dont feel like doing that anymore. 

Poker is going ok - could definately been better but i cant complain. I have done good on Prima, and i have gotten in lots of hands.  More important is it that my mental health seems really good and motivation is better than in long time. Just a big positive cycle, weeee.

I have some buddies struggeling with poker atm, and that sucks pretty bad. I try to help as much as i can, and it turns into something positive for me, ironicly enough. Complaints about specific hands (like ive done close to 100 million times) and "omg he called 3bet with this and that" makes me realize how meaningless those things really are. I hope im over that for good and have moved on. Doing such things is overfocusing on 5% of the reason one performs bad/under expectation. I respons with things like "look 1 year ahead now, say christmas 2009, you having two sicko sessions and lost with ur 7 last AAs will be meaningless for ur result at that time". And i really mean that. Its just a very bad/wrong focus. Sure its easy to have this approach when things go ok, and obvisouly, as the nr 1 whiner of all times i do understand the crying - but its just so wrong and so destroying for general performance. More important 1 year ahead, are things like; did u focus good enough when you played, did u keep your mental health in shape, did you put in the needed hours, did u develop ur game and keep up with the competition, did u exploit the guys you played every day good enough, were you honest with yourself and got away when u played bad, did you play when things went well or when things seemed impossible. I could go on and on, those things matter 1 year ahead, not that u lost with KK to QQ, cause all of us suck out as many times as we get sucked out on (OBV it doesnt feel that way for any of us).

Dont know what happens with this blog - i dont feel like loggin results etc anymore and complain about hands.

GL to you guys, hope all is well.

Take care,

Dan

Hey guys,

Yesterday i put in 8 hours of 4-5tbl and played 3,5k hands at 2/4, unfort also some headup. Things arent going too well tbh. It started of well, i managed to get an ok start and felt good about my play. Then i actually caught some hands and it was so sick to see them hold up, i was up 4bis after 2000 hands, and it made me soo happy. It felt like "damn did i deserve this". It wasnt like setups my way either, it was againt 2 monsteraggros and i had to make kinda hard calls and was right every time. Then, the next 100 hands it all collapses for me, losing all days profit where thinnest play is repop AK and go bust on A104 wv 1010. Then i drop another 4 bis in such an annoying way. I play this player headup that i find bad, not horrible but i def have edge (i think/hope). I have him allin 6times with various stacksizes, he wins all 6. Then i take him out on later on, but unfort for me he rebuys. I was happy he did but it didnt go to well. He buys 300d in and we continue playing, on a 62Q flop i do a ballzy move with A6, he snaps K6 wich is obv the nuts as usual, meh. Then i 3bet 64suit, he min4bets i call, flop is 744, money goes in vs a4. Things feels impossible and i quit the match. 3,5k hands and i dont get one single cute hand my way, imust be doing something very wrong, or im just insane unlucky atm. Noone is always unlucky though so im not sure.

i guess i lost 3 allins with KK, this was vs a3os, a5 and a10, lost QQ to k9. If i only could win these hands i would be even, but i lost all. Now im kinda happy i didnt lose more than i did.

Hopefully things turn around soon and i can go into a heater that lasts longer than 40 hands, or just run normal, like 64 on 447 flop in 4betpot is actually the best hand.

Take care,

Dan