CARDRUNNERS

My plan to move down on PP was a disaster. I think the session I just finished was the worst I've ran of all my sessions. I lost 6-7 2k+ pots at a 70%+ favorite. That sounds absurd, but I'm not exaggerating. My morale w/ poker hasn't been this low in a long time. The only thing I can do now is take an extended break. Normally after running this bad I would be playing bad and getting in as a dog. That is what's unique this time. I am playing well. I still need to clear my head though and let the cards come around for me, because this feels like a big joke that is on me. It's just time to take my own advice and take a break.

I feel like writing this blog is going to help my game. If I write I am going to do something here I will have some accountability to stick to it. There have been times where I will finish a bad session and say that I am going to take a few days off and then I end up playing the next day. I need to stay away for a few days this time...

My day at work today was much better. I mostly was doing research during the day, so it wasn't so tedious and I got to learn some stuff. I had to read up on SOX which is pretty dry, but I find it somewhat interesting at the same time. I think tomorrow they will have some reasonable stuff for me to do too, so that's good.

One thing I've noticed w/ poker lately is that I tend to be whinning a lot more than I used to. I'm not sure why. I feel like I need to vent my bad beats. I got away from that for a long time, because I think it's stupid. Although, I won't argue that it does help make me feel a bit better. The bottom line is that no one cares and there is no reason to bitch about beats to other people. I am going to get my act together and get back to a 0 whine policy. I think it's best for everyone involved. I need to realize that this is just variance and it's bound to happen. I will get out of it soon enough. I am seriously considreing playing poker out of college. If I am going to do that, I really need to repair my approach to poker. I need to treat it as a business. That means no making runs at 25/50, no tilting, no bitching...just solid play. The next year is going to be a test for me. I need to look at it as that and start treating it like that starting now.

I've had a very negative tone in my first few blogs. Don't get me wrong, I am a very happy kid. The last week has just had me really pissed off. It's just a mix of a ton of things...work, poker, sucking at golf, not being 21 (sat at buffalo wild wings and drank a sprite while watching the game while all 6 of my friends drank nice cold beers from the tap...ugh). I need to get this negativity out of my life though. It's not good for me. On a brighter note, I started working out today and that felt good. I think that will be a good way to get rid of any frustrations. I am also thinking about starting to meditate. It sounds weird, but I think it would be good. I tried it awhile back and didn't get too far, but I think I can do it now. I want to become more spiritual.

Better luck at the tables than me....

Cheers,

Andrew